Hi my Name is David

I thought I'd check in for an A.A. meeting on my "Many Post Day." So, here I am, and I have a problem. If you have a solution please leave a comment.

Seriously though, I haven't drank in ages and I'm going through my day groggy as all getup. I've got double vision. Weakness of body. Negative thinking. I'm unemployed. Well, my last post had more stuff that I can't handle. So I thought I'd try a 12 step program.

First step (I'm doing this from memory) accept that God has a plan for me and it doesn't involve alcohol. Hmm, I want to rebel. Here's my thinking. Alcohol is a very potent drug, and also a very popular drug. So, I want to be potent and popular, so I should drink. I drink very little now and it can't possibly be a problem. I want more sweet liquor, so I should drink. Alcohol has a limiting nature, where the drunk doesn't see its effect. I want to limit certain things so I should drink.

Well, I didn't really want to fess up to my computer, but there it is.

Step 2 Make a Change. I'm going on vacation in a month and I resolve to do the following. I will limit myself to non-alcoholic beverages, and reduce even the non-alcoholic wine and beer consumption. I find non-alcoholic wine and beer to be just as sinful as the real thing. I do not intend to limit consumption of non-alcoholic beverages other than wine and beer. I love drinking milk, water, pop, coffee, and other non-vice drinks. So don't tell me I have a problem with them. I may have a little non-alcoholic wine and beer because my grandparents like buying me treats, but not with alcohol. It would be easier to cut them out all together. I will keep my internet shopping modest and realistic. No more "lusting" after junk I don't want or need. There are plenty of things I'll probably never own. It was hard to type that. I'm perfectly happy with that. Also, overeating to the point of excess has got to be limited. It's hard limiting food intake. It's necessary for modesty sake, if for no other reason. Have you ever been to a black tie dinner and asked for seconds...haha, no. I will take responsibility for problems. This doesn't mean that everything I'm railroaded into is a problem. There are more than a few unfortunate missteps in civilization, and my own life that I don't even want to think about. And won't, simply because I don't want to. I will carefully monitor my activity, so as to not be wrongly taxed or quoted when I'm liable. While accepting my own inclination to deception. I will refrain from being excessively goofy or talkative when the situation clearly doesn't warrant it. I won't feel compelled to dictate to others, in action or conversation, without severe cause.