Peachy Keen Jelly Bean...

 Fancy full, free form

falling face first fortnight

fang freelance fool fast

first freedom fill fancy

How many winds in the mix?

 So this is sort of a spiritual post from someone who would rather fight than worship but here goes... How many ways is the way? So, being stuck in second gear may sound like the song from friends, but it's really an issue when you're just counting 1 to 10 over and over... Like there's a lot of leg room in there but birds fly over the rainbow so to speak... So, 1, 2, is really a break...but there are 3 angles of a triangle and four directions to a compass... the real reason I'm getting so rash is because I've got the answer but I don't have the plan. Like, there's a good will, there's help, but is there time??? Like, training day can help a tonne but in the end when it's training day it's not today... And when it's today it's not in the numbers, but the point I'm trying to make is when you're trying to relate the soul of the winds you must have structure or it's just winds... And you have a good point, but I don't make many sacrifices, and even if I did, it would be a super pressing issue...

So I Had the Drink, and it was Nice...

 I decided to have 1 lonely drink and I have to say it was pleasant...It was Surly Furious and it was super hoppy but it washed down the food well... not saying I've got the answer but here and there it's a tasty treat...

Back to the booze...to drink or not to drink...

 The first issue can be addressed through smart consumption, taking Sunday's off, drinking Friday's and Saturday's, drinking in moderation...and a big part of it is simply not worrying about it because when done in moderation the effects are minimal... Sometimes it's hard to gauge moderation but we'll talk about that in the next paragraph...

So over drinking or getting drunk... It's very easy to drink 2 tall beers and have had too much, and I'm a big guy... so it's a little tricky but you gotta have, or at least I gotta have very low limits....That leads to the next paragraph...

Calories, I don't see a good answer for this one except to say that I'd rather live a little than be perfect...

Why am I throwing my head off my shoulders in so many ways?

 There's no good answer for this one...

To Drink or Not to Drink...Wine and Beer...

 So, as far as booze goes... I see 3 prime issues with it...

1) I'm a worker and it may interfere with my work schedule...

2) I drink too much at a sitting for a variety of reasons...

3) I'm not sure it's worth the calories...makes you overweight...

2 Questions,,, Is there any accuracy on computers??? AND what kind of wedding ring to girls like???

 First things first I believe the PC is about as true as any advance machine, say, cars, fabrication, cameras, maybe with slight advantages and disadvantages...

Now, on to the wedding ring thang...I would like to say diamonds are the thang but I'm increasingly under the belief that a classic gold ring would be just fine... White gold is nice on girls with fair complextions, but I believe I and she would like it better if it were yellow gold...They have incredible deals on eBay...

Bonus paragraph... I would like to try some of the bars and restaurants around here, anyone want to go with me???

Where do we go now???

 I'm seething to say it will turn out, but that always begs the question what will be??? Since there are many of us that see the roses quite clearly I'm thinking it's a matter of rose garden hopefully with a cash bar.... So it doesn't have to be progressive, and it doesn't have to be true, but somewhere in between, maybe Camp Ripley, but with better output...Like everyone has different tastes, yet when we listen for 1 cotton picking minute we see there are better things coming... so take it to the streets and move it from the margin to the mainstream...Even when your practice turns out little more than a fraction, you can make things happen in the present...

Revision on fabrication...

 A while ago I was ranting and raving about natural stuff, I'd like to take a step back and say there's a time and a place for certain things, you don't have to press the issue, but it's nice when you have options...

Sex Fantasies Continued...

 Another fun thing is girls in skimpy costumes at Halloween and the Renaissance fairs...One time I even had girls flash me in cars and at dance halls... eBay has many scandalous pictures, I'm hoping in good taste... These are all things someone that's been single too long says, but hey they ain't bad... I wish I could promise 1 lady out there some beautiful things but at this point it's kinda punchy... I guess I've got a good foundation but it takes lots of working outlets to make a house, so to speak...So, you might ask where do I go when it gets punchy??? Well, I look up to actresses like Elvira, Marina Sirtis, and Lucy Lawless among others...As far as costumes go, I like native, nurses, pirate, super heroes, furs, anything that's recognizable and sexy... When I was younger it was whatever was frustrating me at the time, so small spaces, nature, medicine, money... Now it's something functional and sexy...

If he's really wondering about my sex fantasies, here goes...

 Things like cooking in underwear with spouse, or showering...these are a good start for me...I'm a fan of lingerie though good looking underwear can be just as good... a little teasing can be good as long as you know where to draw the line... I want to say things like sex in the woods, sex on the beach, but unless the temps were just right and there weren't any stander byes, it wouldn't work... Getting into a rhythm with your spouse is even more important than any extra's you throw in, though this may lead to dull thinking... Another thing that would be nice is photo sets, you can just put together some cheesecake throwback clothing and do a regular picture taking fun... Then you have your spouse right there in a sexy photo album and on your PC... 1 thing that makes it super fun for both parties is a little suspense leading up to sex and a little follow up after... 

A few of my turnoffs are group sex, anything involving pain, and too much distortion whether it be digital enhancement or rude comments...

As far as drinking and sex goes, I'm sure there are far ranging philosophies, but a little alcohol or tobacco can soften the mood and make sex just a little better. I guess I'm saying drink but don't lose track of where you are... Like a jolly rancher might not cut it, but when you drink the whole bottle sometimes you can't enjoy it...

"If it looks like a rose, and it feels like a rose, and it smells like a rose, it's likely a rose"

Another thing I'm curious about is abstract thinking, I'm sure this has been done many ways, but things like flowing conversation, holiday traditions, and balancing acts come to mind.

to be continued...

The Details are only as Good as You Make them...

 So this is another philosophical rant about thinking and such.....There are many details yet to be explored but it takes effort... Like maybe all the ranting and raving about space and want are just keeping me away from taking chances... For example, I generally google ideas before trying them, not as a rule, but many times, even this post... But a little more experimenting could go a long way, of course keeping safe, and thinking a little...

I'm still thinking a little bit of framing of the ideas could help, and I still have a long way to go on getting my shit together, but many times when I take chances they pay off... For example, when I try new Yo tricks I can get them working in short order... Now, I'd like to take bigger chances, without injuring myself and without getting too far removed... I'm not really worried about losing or finding myself, I'm just thinking about things to do...

A couple ideas are to get Grandpa's pistol and shoot it in our woods, another idea is taking my cross country skis across the frozen lake for exercise...

There are lots of ideas and I'll stay busy whether it's easy or not, but I like to think about this stuff so I don't sit around too much...

Stay Cool OR The Last Time I Try Trying

 So, as technology and life in general change we try to do more and we try to get things done...Without digging a hole there are things I'd like to get done without too much headache... Mainly streamlining the relics and rituals that irritate my daily routine... There are many things I'd like to keep, but space is a big concern... 

Basically, I'd like to organize my stuff to a certain degree... Find some solace in something... Plan a way to help without causing to much conflict... 

Getting Down to Brass Tacks, Pain Killers, Antihistimines, and Cold Medicine for Mood Disorders....

So I've really had a hard time with the diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder, it just didn't seem to fit... But if it were some kind of bipolar depression I'm sure OTC pain killers, antihistimines, and cold medicine come into play somewhere... Treating the issue is better than hiding it... Not that I can help it any old direction it goes, but I get the feeling we're leading the witness...

Making the Blogging and Web Design into a Going Concern...

 A lot of what I blog about is so crabby, what I want is more about the pleasant stuff...and the useful stuff...Like I'm not giving up on my fighting career, I'm just making ends meet so to speak....So instead of breaking bread, maybe a little more show-and-tell, but there's limits to this too...

It's a trifle more than digging a hole, you're just not listening...

So the main is still there, it hasn't moved that much...I'm just losing sight of the point...that may be, but the main has moved enough to be irritating, and those bags under my eyes aren't from "free living." This is another complaint about how it's so hard to be useful without being used, to be trying without being trying... Maybe it is but when I'm after the fact just to breath, then it's more than a healthcare problem... Well maybe it's just a health problem, not a healthcare problem, you hear dad talking about pollen...yes, but I also hear dad talking about myself...you barely know yourself, so what good is self defense when you don't have a clue? I'm not talking about use or myself, there are things happening around me that are racking my nerves...and he isn't helping...It's the mum's the word thing, staying out of trouble, doing the right thing...each important in their own right, but not if they are getting in the way of trying...You heard Cody, it's super easy...so why are you still "trying" to build nuance? Why do you think? They are trying to work, but they are falling on deaf ears... Maybe in the past, but what about now? It's kind of like the experienced ladies say, they try and they fail...when it's that easy, I'm not sure what I'm working for...Well I ain't sizing people up for battle...So it's petty self defense because it gets you further than anything else...I get the feeling we're trying for different things...I get the feeling self defense doesn't make much sense at all...I don't mind...(so maybe, just maybe, quit salting my fields because of coincidence)

Sunday, Sunday, unlike any other day...

I'm totally mixed up on days, and the resistance is getting smaller and smaller... but there are a few decisions that have made a difference...

Instead of Fancying Up Prices, why Don't We Make the Middle Stronger?

For example, there are some really nice clothes out there, but without access to them it doesn't really matter how nice they are, or what price they are...So I could say word of mouth but I regret to think that you gotta pay to play...so are these deals in the Sunday paper giving me hints? Is the frog in my window well a double agent? What are we getting at? The middle class, and any class for that matter is picky, so find what works and price realistically... What does this rant mean in practice? I like the nice shorts I'm wearing and I'm going to wash them and buy another pair...And I could tell you you're trying too hard, but you are trying for a reason...But, buttercup, you better dig your well before you're thirsty...Are you saying I do have to make my own clothes? And what about the fancying up the prices, do I have to double check my receipts like a hundred times?

There could be expansion, in fact there likely was expansion right before the blitz of cheap-sakes, but how much and where? I could tell you that main changes, but it's more likely just changes in seasons... So, since they shut down Arc on Brooklyn Blvd. I really should have taken a little time searching for nice shorts at the thrift store in Isanti...Maybe, but remember you deserve a break too...Yeah I remember all too well...

So, resolutions time...First, I want to get my closet done, so I know what I got and there's not a bunch of furniture and tubs in there, and maybe rehang the tie rack if there's time...Second, I want to watch some of these movies I've bought, which may require a new DVD player if I got to select a show, but if I'm just going to play it, it might work...Third, I've got to cook if no-one else does...

What, what?! OR repeating for nickels...

When I have to run super-cross through the mud for the sake of sporting, I'll have to say "what, what" it's a dangerous line of work because it's twice over wrong and it's twice over wrong for a reason...but there are many reasons we can become twice over wrong that I don't even care to think about...like he's treating me like a smoker when I haven't smoked a day in my life, and even if I did it would be for all the right reasons...and this craziness about Pink Floyd and building will only take you so far...like yeah man "I'm handy" but I ain't trying to build an Ark...And when I say that the little white pills we take could be a heck of a lot healthier I mean it...like if you're going to kite time you might as well get something done with it...and I'm not sure how many folks there are just getting by, but you could at least pick up a hobby...like yeah we all try to just get by but there must be some sharing of trade and craft...and I ain't talking about plumbing...

That said, there are a bunch of areas where things are going right, but can we keep up the good work without slaving too much?

El Crazon el Toro y la cannino

la canine es para todos los días...muercoles es la dia por mas o menos principales...

For the Record, There are More Ghosts in the Machine than I Care to Think About

You can try 1 thing or another, but when he or she tells you they are "cross and not coming back" you better listen...But it's so hard to listen when Rome is a heartbeat away...Like vacation sounds nice, but permanent vacation not so much...So narrow your irons down...Yes, that's what I've been doing but it's landing me with makeup on my face and a brush in my hand...well this may sound obvious, yet "work hard, play hard." So you want to work, but you don't want to flounder, you want to be vain, but you don't want to be pretty, it sounds like you want to turn back the clock 15 years...Well that's the obvious punchline, but it's more like my vitals are not registering...So talk about your poor health then...But no-one is listening, and when they do they take it severely out of context...So charge less for health care...That's likely the reason I don't have a cell, and why my hygiene is relatively good, and why I take care of household chores without too many problems...

Again, he's goading you into non-productive reasoning...

The problem is the man is afraid of reason, but his shadow is not, so he's leading the witness farther than you can imagine...

He digs up the past to distract, but again noones listening...

You know some real bad tricks and you need some discipline...so from now on I'll just tell him "ask your wife"

I'm repeating myself and noone is listening, I'm still getting mighty good at peachy sunny disposition...

So when only the wrong people listen you wonder why you try at all...and I'm beginning to believe that "the man" is already dead, and the little people aren't so little... It makes you want to nay-say "the man" right into his own hands...like how much death can you really take, and let me tell you, he's not as bad as he claims... Seriously though, when it's pomp and circumstance, you just pick up baggage as you pack your baggage...It's lose-lose...and I'm sure dear Mom and Dad have their reason, but "Quit picking fights and live a little." And I'm sure not talking about myself...And he's twisting my words in the worst way...as if taking my health wasn't enough...He'll treat you all right...

I'm Not Afraid of Empire Building but there Must Be a Cap

So people say progress is a funny beast when you're trying to be useful and at the same time calm....I think I went through a little on this front to contribute to the cause...

So, when you're trying to be social, and build, you look for ways of functioning...Everyone draws the line at a different place, but in essence you have to use to re-use... So for the sake of argument we'll say that it takes a catalyst to be social... Now most people are calm enough that they can function without the catalyst, but when we enforce the typical DARE program on young people, it gets showy as they try to progress past puberty... I don't think the answer is drugs though that is 1 way of doing it...I would say "fun" catalysts like arts and crafts, but they are severely limited without the space to use them... So we call it candy and pop and presents and leave it at that. But even when they improve they are met with resistance...and it's the resistance that's doing it too...

So, the real question is why do we jump to conclusions when young people improve? It's not nearly as natural as it sounds...it's a closely guarded school class that gives options for progression. You could say we're graduating kids as they go... But I guess what I'm trying to say is most people, young and old, don't have the curriculum to maintain healthy use... Things like syllabuses(and reviewing them), teacher's assistants, special programs, and physical education, all contribute to a well balanced curriculum, but the studies themselves must also put forth content, and students must be able to keep their progress in real terms(most likely on computers)...and no I don't mean medals in video games...

But where will this content come from? Well, I'm glad you asked... It should be a combination of the teacher's resources and the student's creation... But the gold stars we put on the student's paper should mean the student can draw on their creation for a lifetime...Restricting curriculum in the name of use is like trying to play leapfrog over tall buildings...It's not practical and it's not helpful...And this is exactly why I said I want a dog and not education talk...1 with a long snout....