Sense of Security

After losing your sense of security for long enough, I presume people, just random people, get whatever they want....I get this impression not from my own illness, but rather from the extremism of civilization. That sucks, and the thought that it may be true sucks even more. Why can't a decent view from my window be enough?!! It should be enough, at least for a moment. But somewhere, somewhere not so deep down actually is deeply pained and sad. I don't make excuses for him, I just live with him, day in and day out, for 30 years so far.