Feeling Prety Good this Morning

Had a good nights sleep last night, and what a difference does that make. I'm able to stretch out breath, and drink my coffee while taking in the quiet. Actually give my thoughts the attention they deserve. It's an extremely pleasant feeling. I'm also excited about getting my Social Security Disability money for October. Finally I'm in a position to take a chunk of debt off my shoulders and pay back some of the kind people that lent me money. Also, with not smoking I'm saving over $100 a month and as I pay down my debt the interest will compound downward, a pleasant change. That said, I've got a bunch of recurring bills I need to take care of, some new, like the newspaper, Magic Jack, and car payment, some old like interest, medicine, and food. The ultimate goal is to get out of debt, pay my recurring bills on time, and set aside a small amount each month for big purchases (or repairs uggh). Now is the time to make a fair assessment of my Internet goals. Programming in all it's forms is a severely under-appreciated profession. It's a hard way to make an easy buck. That said, I don't want to abandon it altogether, it's my biggest form of anything remotely resembling real work. But, I'll have to accept that it's only a part of my work plan!!! First and foremost I need to start accepting day labor. If I'm offered a few bucks to do this or that, I must challenge myself to take the work even if it seems like a losing proposition, if it's remotely profitable, I should take the work. Second, I need a structured way of looking at my computer work, you're not surfing the event horizon of a black hole David, you're laying down keystrokes, language, and money to accomplish a goal, remember that. Maybe the stupid banker Rich was right, get a job. Finally, I need to manage better, body mind, and soul. That means making hygiene a top priority, even when I don't want to. It means taking gains and losses in stride instead of living with each one. It means making more accurate assessments and keeping better records. And most of all, truly being thankful for those teachers, mentors, family, and strangers that keep me going when things seem dim.