So Very Very Hungry

I'm taking my anti-sphycotic med in the morning, so that I'm not starving at bedtime. It really seems to be working. But, I'm very hungry at about lunch time, which is fine. When I'm at Minnesota I'll just eat bigger lunches. Grandma, Grandpa, and I are eating hamburgers now....they're cooking....I'll devour mine with ketchup and a bun.

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Back to Construction

Just as soon as I think the manual labor is done, it creeps up again. I'm helping Rich, a neighbor of my Grandparents, fix up his new house. It ain't too bad, there's air conditioning inside, pays well, and I'm helping one of my Grandparents friends. It's actually amazing how quickly the brain, and muscles for that matter, recall construction work, it's as if the more you do, the more muscle memory you have for the trade. Also, I have to refine my website, I'm getting an astounding amount of traffic, and I want more...My biggest problem I'm facing is sourcing quality products at wholesale prices. Most of the things we buy at Wal-Mart, Walgreens, The Dollar Store, Gas Stations, and Convenience Stores are so close to the actual COGS that finding cheap product is challenging. One might imagine that you can find those prices on the Internet, yet it's more challenging than it sounds. And manufacturing quality products is even more expensive. So, where does that leave my little shop? Struggling, I guess. PS...Just pressed a button that let me access the code on this page, a very valuable idea, wonder what I pressed to get it?!

Career in Sales or Movies

It just so happens that I'm making a tiny bit of money in Sales, so what do I do? Find an expensive hobby of course. I'm looking at this XL-H1 camera that I could make stars, (and movies), with. It would likely end up taping the family dogs, pickup games at the park, and the inside of my office imploding on myself. That said, it's likely a natural progression in my career...doesn't every poor musician salesman want to be a movie star, or make movies? IDK...I want to make something that ends up in everyone's collection. Probably will stick to knitted hats, jewelry, and small electronic devices. That said, cameras and camcorders, are very high on my priorities, that said, don't need to spend $5,000 on a camcorder that I don't intend to use. It would just be an indulgence, and I may get it, and I may not. Either way I'll be content, I'm just not sure I'm making this goal out of pure intentions. Besides, I've got a perfectly good video camera, where I can still source film, and it probably looks great transferred to a PC. It may even have "pro" aspect ratios, I haven't looked. How do you make budget movies anyway? Buy a screenplay, props, hire actors, film, editing, green screen, only to find that my movie is a box office bust. IDK...want a cigarette to forget about goals.

200th Post

Wow, I've ranted and raved a lot to get to 200 posts. Still vacationing in Arizona, though I'm beginning to worry that I'll be broke when I return home. It's not really being broke that bothers me, it's not having cash in my wallet and account. It's nice to have a little cash on hand to burn, or gift, or invest. Either way I'll be happy, and that's what counts. I hope Sheila Galley doesn't read this, she thinks I'm a slacker. And I am a bit of a slacker, and I like it this way. No-one wants to be at the whims of another, especially with all the turmoil in the government, and foreign governments, and infighting within companies, market, and some families. I answer to doctors, authorities, banks, and mostly my wonderful family. So, if you think I'm slacking talk to my superiors and they will let you know exactly what I've done and where I'm going. It ain't a secret.

Going for Broke

OK, so I love shopping. But, I really need to pay down my debt. It's been a burden for too long and now I want to be out of debt. I spend way too much time thinking about what I owe and not enough time thinking about work and recreation. I think I should be able to pay it down with my Social Security checks, it will just take time...yeah, I need more of that too. Well, Maybe if I quit charging alltogether and only use my debit card I'll get out of debt. Yes, after I get my next Social Security check I will cut up my credit card and go to a strictly cash basis.

God, I hope that works.

Looking for Miss Right

I'm not really lonely, but I would like a feminine touch in my life. Life with a woman isn't great, but it's better than life without her. Thing is, I don't drink, and I don't want to deal with kids, so most single ladies drink, and single mothers' want a role model...so I'm stuck. I think I'm going to sign up for a couple dating sites, at least then I can text flirt...I'll tell the single ladies I'm George Clooney or something j/k...I've been single for too long, I find myself having conversations with myself, and using skewed logic to make decisions...plus I genuinely want a woman's perspective, I know the women of my family make me happy and give me a fresh perspective...so I want a woman to call my own. I'm afraid that I'll end up with a psychopath, guess that's a chance I'll have to take.

Drinking a Beer at the Exotic Paradise that is My Grandparents House

I've narrowed my Amazon wish list to 150 items, I'll have it at 100 by the end of the night. I'm really wondering what kind of career I should pursue when I get back to MN. I've got a little talent and skill at a bunch of things, but I don't know what I want to do as a profession. It would be nice if there were like a 1000000 question quiz I could take that would place me square in a profession. I would rather be wondering what it's like without my profession than wondering what the heck I'm trying to accomplish.

I think I would like something with a lot of crunch. Like film, or construction, or something like that where there is always a bunch to do. I really enjoy working on the computer too, and doing what I'm doing, so maybe I'll continue pursuing that. I just wish I had a better idea of how everyone else uses the computer and the internet, so that I would be better equipped to sell to the Internet crowd.

Every time I ask "what does the public think of shopping on the Internet?" I draw a blank and think there is some kind of stigma that comes with computers, and there is...There's a bunch of raunchy stuff on here, and a bunch of dead ends, and a bunch of headaches...but then again; how is that different from any other career??? I keep telling myself that this is some sort of matrix that I'm a slave to, and that's partially correct, but it's what I know, it's what I do, it's a very big part of my life...I barely feel at home without a computer in front of me, and I wonder is that a good or a bad thing, I wonder if there's some sort of magical spell that might make me at home as a rancher or an architect, or a baseball player.