A Hair Cut

I got my hair cut short after years of wearing it long, it's a weird feeling having short hair again.

My van is in the shop, it sounds like it needs a lot of work done, I'm not looking forward to the bill, but I'm dependant on it for transportation.

I keep having this Buddhist fantasy that I'm going to live a perfect day and then recreate and improve on it every day. In reality what this means is that I need some down time. I guess that's what I have now while typing this...I feel warm, the traffic isn't too overwhelming, my parents are in bed, I don't feel too crazy about anything in particular, I'm full, I'm clean...mostly feel good.

I have this fear that there are people, possibly me in the future, that are railroaded through life with the same wet static fealing that I've had. So, then I ask what that tells me and I say to myself, I'll work up the strength to combat that wet static feel, yet that doesn't seem to work either. It's hard to gain confidence when it's natural to feel resistence.