Looking Forward to the Weekend

Feeling good about the weekend coming in 20 minutes. I hope to play some basketball at the park, do some yoga(push ups, sit ups, and sissy squats), do some laundry, and maybe read, knit, watch baseball, and play The Godfather II. I figure if I do positive things I'll have a positive perspective.

The Fire Inside

The lack of sleep, combined with the annoying features of life are making me a bit edgy. Today's dilbert.com comic has a guy snapping from having too many passwords, sometimes I feel like that guy. While I never gave much credibility to the affects of nicotine and caffiene, it seems they do have an effect on my anxiety level, but at the same time my morning coffee, and when I'm thristy, a dew, make me somewhat relaxed.

I made a second video of the Robbinsdale Chess Club and posted it on youtube.com, it's a great game where the balance of the two armies flows back and forth. I hope to continue making these videos for a long time to come.

Cleaning and Creating Video

I'm cleaning my office now, tonight I look forward to hanging my new Betty Paige poster, and making a chess video for youtube.com.

I've been doing Ken Ken puzzles lately, they are strangely engrossing. It's a number puzzle similar to soduko, but with math equations.

Feeling a bit better

I'm feeling a little bit better since my "vent" post this morning, so if there's really anyone out there reading this, thanks for sticking around.

Communication Problem

I'm having trouble answering my phone and emails. I know I should get back to people but it's hard. Mental illness is not fun. I'll just do my best, and if people don't like it, then too bad.

Feeling a Bit Better Today

I'm feeling a bit better today, made a sale on ebay.com, and ordered some inventory for custom go sets from shodanimports.com.

I also went number 1 in the woods behind my house, that always makes me feel better :)

Gotta go to group today, I hope everyone is doing well. I also hope that Anthony is there, he likes movies, and sports, and pretty women. I feel like I can relate to him.

The burning sensation in my eyes is a little better today.

Overwhelmed

Feeling a bit overwhelmed today. The Visine helped my burning eyes. I look back on my past, and those lives that I've touched, and can't help but wonder...what if I had been more logically compassionate, more in tune with time, better prepared, had asked for help sooner, had been more responsible. What if my relationships were better, what if I had saved my money, what if I had never touched a computer, what if I cared more? What would life be without war, without famine, without sexual assault, without guns, without cigarettes, without illness?

On a brighter note, I look forward to hearing how Tom likes his go set.