Getting Down to Brass Tacks, Pain Killers, Antihistimines, and Cold Medicine for Mood Disorders....

So I've really had a hard time with the diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder, it just didn't seem to fit... But if it were some kind of bipolar depression I'm sure OTC pain killers, antihistimines, and cold medicine come into play somewhere... Treating the issue is better than hiding it... Not that I can help it any old direction it goes, but I get the feeling we're leading the witness...

Making the Blogging and Web Design into a Going Concern...

 A lot of what I blog about is so crabby, what I want is more about the pleasant stuff...and the useful stuff...Like I'm not giving up on my fighting career, I'm just making ends meet so to speak....So instead of breaking bread, maybe a little more show-and-tell, but there's limits to this too...

It's a trifle more than digging a hole, you're just not listening...

So the main is still there, it hasn't moved that much...I'm just losing sight of the point...that may be, but the main has moved enough to be irritating, and those bags under my eyes aren't from "free living." This is another complaint about how it's so hard to be useful without being used, to be trying without being trying... Maybe it is but when I'm after the fact just to breath, then it's more than a healthcare problem... Well maybe it's just a health problem, not a healthcare problem, you hear dad talking about pollen...yes, but I also hear dad talking about myself...you barely know yourself, so what good is self defense when you don't have a clue? I'm not talking about use or myself, there are things happening around me that are racking my nerves...and he isn't helping...It's the mum's the word thing, staying out of trouble, doing the right thing...each important in their own right, but not if they are getting in the way of trying...You heard Cody, it's super easy...so why are you still "trying" to build nuance? Why do you think? They are trying to work, but they are falling on deaf ears... Maybe in the past, but what about now? It's kind of like the experienced ladies say, they try and they fail...when it's that easy, I'm not sure what I'm working for...Well I ain't sizing people up for battle...So it's petty self defense because it gets you further than anything else...I get the feeling we're trying for different things...I get the feeling self defense doesn't make much sense at all...I don't mind...(so maybe, just maybe, quit salting my fields because of coincidence)