K + U = MC^2 Einstein's Longhand

In other words the kinetic energy plus the potential energy is equal to the mass times the speed of light squared.

Yeah, it still doesn't make any sense.

Computer Synthesizer

In an attempt to formulate a next big score, both in assets and income, I came to the idea of a synthesizer that links with Fruity Loops Studio, using built in instruments, recording, presets, tracks, etc...etc...

This would be an ultimate expression, having a laptop onstage, linked to the PA and play song after song in a typing fashion.

It would require a difficult learning curve to perform, like any other instrument, yet would allow for a great ammount of variety, depth, adaptivity, access to sounds, availability, and more.

Dummy Post

Posting this image as a reference to my Shadow Assassin's forum avatar.

Past the Cigarette, Getting High on Life

Really good day today, helping around the house, in the backyard, went to Weight Watchers, ate tasty food with my parents, played some basketball, a bunch of Planetside, wow, it really is a bunch when you stop and think about it. I just hope that someone, somewhere, is planning about a decade of boredom for me, so that I can flex my imagination and resolve. Don't get me wrong, I love living it up, and I don't want the full wrath of Pain to strike the Earth down. What I really want is more days like today. And I really hope that my parents are trying as hard as me to get along. OH, WAIT, I threw the tennis ball for Oakley about a hundred times, that's really cool. I shot over 37 hoops in the driveway, I truly considered going to the park and challenging a couple black kids up there, but I wasn't feeling confident in my stamina.

I hear that the Timberwolves won today against the Denver Nuggets, quite an upset. The Nuggets were on a roll before that game. I'm itching to watch some baseball, I really don't know any of the new players for the Twins, but who knows, we could have a stellar year. When I'm done posting here I'm going to find the Wild highlights on Youtube.

Maybe You Have Notice my Anxiety, I Want a Cigarette!!

Haven't smoked an actual cigarette in years, but the smells, tastes, music, women and rain are mixing to make one mean cigarette craving :) Maybe I'll pick up a pack tomorrow, probably not though.

Be Kind to Yourself

No, I'm not Zeus, not God, not Jesus, not even a minor diety like Orion, it's me David :)

So, why do I have trouble enjoying life?

Maybe it's because of some past life that can't be forgotten, maybe the newspaper, maybe the clock and birds aren't harmonizing today.

I'm looking for savory sensations.

Play Along Long Enough and Rise and Fall

So, if I play along long enough, I get to ride a rollercoster of life, schweet.

Try and Find This

Why is everyone trying to find me when I"m right here?!

Back to Planetside, cause the corps don't want me.

Be True to Thine Self Till Death

So, basically, you'll be lonely until you accept yourself....then, after you accept yourself, you can begin to accept another.

For my Loving Fans

I'm not actually as crabby as I sound...I want to be constructive, but problems keep popping up, I guess that's life.

I want to perform guitar in a jazz band with well dressed, attractive, women watching...a little smoke...a little wine, you get the picture. Maybe that place at the corner of 81 and 30, the narrows.

I would want me on guitar, an upright bass, a violin, a piano, and a sax.

I'm going to send John another needy message, asking for names :)

I Have Ad-Diction and Should Be Institutionalized

Ok, not really, but sometimes I feel this way.  I don't trust myself, I don't trust civilization, so why not spend the rest of my days in an institution?!

Stock Round Lot less than Bond Lot And Net Hourly Wage

So, I found a simple explaination as to why commercial investors don't buy bonds...a round lot of 100 shares of stock might run $1,000 whereas a round lot of bonds is $100,000. This is a neat way of thinking about the balance. I would like to own more stocks and bonds.

Also, I've begun getting realistic about what I make per hour. When I was younger, I thought that every transaction was a dangerous quest, I still think that way sometimes, but realistically, there are chairs to fill, and people looking for a place to sit. I make pennies per hour. I would like to raise my net profit per hour to more than a dollar an hour.

Keep it Clean

The famous starting words at a boxing match, so simple, yet so elegant. Sometimes we need to stop and ask ourselves, "Are we keeping it clean?" Things like torture, internet porn, pointless shootings; these things make me truly question whether we as a civilization want to keep it clean, or do we want a mess?! I sure don't want a mess, yet readily admit, in the same breath, it's incredibly hard keeping it together.

From the obvious blows hockey players exchange, to the much more subtle things like daily discourse, we should continously be asking ourselves, are we keeping it clean? And no Prince nor Princess, Emperor nor Private, may force this civility on you, I must catch myself, and accept my own humanity.

New Appreciation of Diet Pop

I got a sweet deal at Walgreens 2 x 23 oz. cans of Arizona Green Tea for $1.07, didn't realize they were diet until about half way back to my office. But, turns out they taste fine.

Damn, it Feels Good to Be a Single Man

Yeah, I just resolved to research the current debate resolutions and they have some wicked ones.

The policy resolution, more or less, is "Be it resolved that the United States Federal Government should significantly increase its transportation infrastructure."

This comes at a time when anything I accomplish physically seems vain and trivial, so it's a nice bone to have the current debate resolutions available.

I'm sure there's someone, somewhere, that's sick of greasing the wheels, but think how the wheels feel.

The Only Thing to Fear is Fear Himself

Truly, a fear of mine is that my family, any part of the human family, and particularly those that I'm closest to, will die, be forgotten, or otherwise pass into the ether of the universe and cease to be.

Princesses and Soilders

This is what our society is becoming, if it isn't already this way. No more nuance, no more casual Fridays, no more festivals or community. You are either a Princess or a Soilder, with the old princesses and soilders graduating the young. The sad thing is that these silver kings and queens will get what they want...then realise that this dichotomy reflects on themselves, and destroys the very institution they serve.

Luxury is Addiction

Ever since I put the down payment on my Epiphone Emperor Regent down, I've been looking for magic items whilst paying off my debt.

Rome, Romance, Object, Drug, and Gold

A little confused, being bursting yet tired.

I know there is a simple life out there, yet in all my experience, I'm unable or unwilling to walk it.

I know little, and least of all know myself.

"To thine self be true."

I fantasize and I consume, I run from countless loss.

A Minute

Good does not qualify as good, in my book, when it's framed by chaos and war. Not to say that I don't account for the good times, nor that I'm always in a bad mood, only that every chirping bird is progress, every growing thing a start.

Call me a hippie, gay, or what you will, yet I know that my path leads to peace, passion, structure, love, fulfillment, acceptance, truth, relation, and many more things yet unseen. As a great wizard once stated, per J.R.R. Tolkien's classic, "Do not be eager to give justice and judgement."

Stomach Filled up to Where my Heart Was

Finnally getting warmed up and ate enough food to fill my body. I feel that I deserve to feel warm and safe and full at every meal. That may not be practical, but the idea sure seems nice.

So, my life has been resembling that of a lost boy more than a calm confident adult, but I take medicine every day for depression and pyschosis and mood stability. It's just really aggravating thinking that I'm caring about life more and life gets harder. I always believed that as I became a better person, with more direction that I would have a better time, and I guess that may be true in a sense, but something happened where I'm not able to slow down during my down time.

In other words, I want to feel like mollasis without having one of my limbs chopped off. And without using controlled substances.

Grandma and I have a new system for health. If we want a treat we need to do a proportionate ammount of exercise before the treat. This really makes sense to me, because of cause and effect, WW, and because of what Grandpa said about having a two track mind. So far, it's working really well, except for an early morning binge.

I have had plenty of risky behavior in my past, and I'm just hoping that I get over it. Yet, my risky behavior has lead me to a very honest approach to life. I'm working at limiting the risky behavior, so I can feel healthier in the future. It wouldn't hurt finding a girlfriend.

If anyone has her number, please leave it in the comments.

Coma

I think my body is going into a coma, I can't breath, I can't taste, and I'm hungry after I eat. I'm happy that I can see. I'm not going to start every positive with a negative, GOOD BEGETS GOOD, and WINNERS WIN.